Hey Readers! I’m back in the Garret!
So toward the end of September, I hinted at the fact that I was feeling more depressed than usual. I thought I was on an upswing toward the end of October and I really thought I’d be back to reading and posting and being a generally active–if extremely minor–member of the online book community… Well you know what they say about the best laid plans of mice and men and women suffering from depression…
Things went awry.
Things got worse at the end of October. I was very blue and life didn’t wait for me to catch up, work got crazy, family got crazy, money stuff got crazy and I was left without a single spoon at the end of most days. I laid in the dark a lot, I “watched” the entire four seasons of Younger about six times on Hulu before switching over to my old depression standby New Girl reruns on Netflix. I didn’t read much, I certainly didn’t write much… I made an ill-fated attempt at NaNoWriMo that only left me feeling shittier about myself.Basically, I ended up overwhelmed to the point where even thinking about this blog and my other nonessential life stuff made me breakdown in a panic or a fit of sobs.
So I took a break.
I gave myself permission to press pause on the unnecessary stresses in my life, and pick them back up when I was feeling up to it. And guess what? I’m now feeling “up to it”. Work has calmed down for the moment–though I did just take on a temporary part-time gig directing a play–and I’m feeling a bit more, up and at’em than I have been in a long while.
I’ve got a few tricks up my sleeves to keep me from hitting slumps too hard,namely the Bookriot Read Harder Challenge and my new ‘Read the Books I Already Own’ philosophy. I just have to keep at the whole updating this blog thing…but I also have to give myself permission to hit pause occasionally.
So, thank you to those of you who have stuck with me. I’m hoping to bring you some actual decent bookish content soon!